Do you have faith in your mustard seed?

Sunday I woke up in this weird mood. I was actually debating on skipping church... But I said I know God has something to tell me, so I went.. It was a great service but I was still in this weird mood.. I just felt like crying, and really, for no reason..

Sometimes the Spirit brings laughter, but sometimes He brings weeping.. God brings me into these places with Him, and sometimes its not an instant download of revelation. He gives me piece by piece, sometimes it takes a few minutes, sometimes a few hours, some a few days, and sometimes years..

This started last Saturday.. I was watching a sermon online, and then the next day my pastor spoke almost to the tee the same message. I was wow.. God is speaking to me, but what is He trying to tell me.. Where is He bringing me.. He doesn't bring you into these places just for the fun of fit. Its for Him, and His purposes..  Throughout the week that led up to this past Sunday I was thinking about faith.. Sunday before church I read Romans 8.. The life in the Spirit.. What does that mean? What does that look like?.. I took a shower and was praying and God reminded me of a dream I had at least six months ago.. This dream was for a purpose.. It was to show me something, and to teach me something about God.. I feel so greatfull that God took me into His realm of revealing something to me like this, so I can understand more of Him and more about who He is.. He showed me what it looks like when someone believes in Jesus and has faith.. When a person is re-born with the spirit.. When they become dead to themselves but alive in the Spirit. When a person becomes a new creation!!

In this dream I could hear the breath of God.. I could hear His Spirit giving life to this person.. This person was dead before, but God blew on Him, and He received His Spirit, which led to this person becoming alive in Christ.. Alive only because the Spirit lived in him..

¹¹ The Spirit of God, who raised Jesus from the dead, lives in you. And just as God raised Christ Jesus from the dead, he will give life to your mortal bodies by this same Spirit living within you.

This person who now was alive was also preaching at a church in my dream. This person who was re-born didn't act as if he was dead after He received Gods spirit.. He said that before he was living this life of sin, that he didn't want to let go of and he couldn't breath at all, but then when he let go of his sin, he became alive, and that he could now breath.. Because he was alive.\ 

With Gods amazing love, full of grace, and mercy who gives us life.. Who breaths in us and pours His spirit on us.. Why oh why do we act like we are alive without Him.. We walk around with these vessels that hold the "Holy" spirit and we are useless vessels because we let our mind control us, and not let the spirit control us.. 

He is raising up His army.. An army that doesn't let their mind control them.. But instead gives over everything to Him, so that instead the spirit controls the mind..What does a battalion do when their leader commands..They listen.. They face the battle even if it means death..He is raising up warriors to be His army that lives by His Spirit..

I want that.. I want to be His warrior.. I want nothing more then to be an empty vessel only filled with His Spirit, that lives by His Spirit.. I want my faith to be more then just a mustard seed. I want my faith in Jesus to be a seed that sprouts, and grows, and ends up being the biggest tree that has birds living in it, and making their home in it.. 

Jesus said all you need is a mustard seed of faith.. and with it everything is possible.. Thank you Jesus for starting out small in us.. But I am ready to grow. I want to sprout, and grow branches.. I want to live my life by the spirit. I want to walk like you walked, and see what you see.. I want more and more faith because it is faith that brings Glory To The Father.. That is it. Faith alone is what pleases Him. Faith alone is what glorifies Him.. Faith alone is what saves you.. Faith alone is what gave you His Spirit.. Faith alone is what gave you birth..

So I ask you.. Do you have faith in your mustard seed? Do you really have faith in it? We talk so much about having faith like a mustard seed, but if you were put to the test could you find your mustard seed.?. Sometimes its hard trying to dig it out.. Sometimes its like trying to find a needle in a haystack. 

My mustard seed of faith isnt just faith in what ever I am trying to accomplish.. It is my faith in God.. It is the question that brings God Glory.. Do I have a tiny seed of faith in God, that I cant find sometimes, or is my faith in God easily found.. I dont want to dig to find this seed.. I want it to be on the surface where I can see it. Where I can climb it, Where I can put a hammock in it and rest.. Rest in Trusting in God alone..

Fear and Love!~The true Gospel

Fear and Love....

How can God love you as much as people tell you He does when all you have been taught is fear Him, and fear His wrath, and judgement? Fire and Brimstone.. Or How do you live under this umbrella of grace when some people teach you to live with "super grace"?

I have met people who live under both.. and its sad.. I think its more sad for the people who have been taught to fear God with an unhealthy expectation of how He corrects His children.. Because these people are teaching so much about judgement and hell, that they forget to teach about Gods love, and the way He corrects. He is the perfect judge, with perfect justice, and nothing but a loving, gentle  correction for His children who love Him.. These people never walk in His true freedom and grace because they feel so much condemnation for making the bad choices, and mistakes... They can never reach true freedom with repentance because they are so afraid of His wrath.. They will never reach the full potential of what God has created for their lives because they are so controlled with mans teachings about fearing the Lord.. This sends people to hell because there is no movement in the church except through judgement and judgement doesn't win people to Christ..

 On the other hand people who teach super grace are watering down the gospel and sending people to hell.. They teach this superficial grace of God, that these people walk in their own freedom, not Gods freedom.. They are still living a life of the old.. They are not living in the new creation God has intended for them. They are living on the fence with one foot in and one foot out, and the fence belongs to Satan...


The true Gospel is that ...


God wants you to love Him so much that when you come into these revelations of His amazing love, and grace that you do fear Him because you know His love so well. A true taste of Gods love is something that is like nothing you have ever tasted before. Its true love, unfailing love, full of compassion, mercy and grace. That you are so awe-mazed at His love that you understand how to fear Him correctly..You never want to be out from under this amazing love because you know how mighty, and powerful God is. You know how just He is. You know He is a holy God and you are called to be His Holy people.. You are so consumed with His love, that you desire His love, and you are so passionate for His consuming fire that all you want is to be purified and holy for Him.. You are sold out for Jesus! You take every thought captive and release it back to God to take care of, and move on living with a clear conscious..

When you are so on fire for God, and He purifies you with His fire, that you become the fire.. You want nothing but to be consumed by His fire, that burns the chaff from wheat.. He doesn't just burn the chaff from the wheat inside of your soul through sanctification, He then fills in those places with His holy oil, and living water.. He fills in those gaps with His blood, and the purest gold..

Jesus came to the world and left two commandments..

³⁷ Jesus replied, “‘You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your mind.’ ³⁸ This is the first and greatest commandment. ³⁹ A second is equally important: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.

Do you really love God?? This will solve every problem you ever come into.. This will solve every struggle, trial, and test you are put through.. Do you really love God?  God doesn't just want you to obey Him, He wants you to love Him first! Without you loving Him, you following His rules means nothing and is done through your own strength.. And if you really really truly love Him you will obey Him..You will want nothing more then to be purified for Him.. He gave you His perfect Love through Jesus Christ, and if you really love Him, you will try to give Him your best perfect love back through becoming holy.. Then you will really be able to love people, like how God loves people.. If you want to really know who God is, if you want to really encounter Gods love, if you want to really know how to fear God.. Then pray and read your bible with only the Holy Spirit to guide you and teach you truth..
 
The true Gospel is not complicated. It is not hard.. Man has created this complicated gospel to follow and its a problem...Its leaving people broken and lost..

Do you believe in God's Glory??

Listen!! Hear this word!!

Didn't I tell you that you would see Gods Glory if you believe?..

Earlier Jesus told Martha that her brother Lazarus would rise and live again because he died from sickness. Then Jesus told her he would live even after dying, and anyone who believes in me will never ever die. Do you believe this Martha?. She says Yes, Lord. I have always believed you are the Messiah, The Son of God, and the one who has come into the world from God.

But not long after, they arrive at the tomb of Lazarus, and Jesus tells them to roll the stone away from the grave.. And Martha says but Lord, he has been dead for four days. The smell will be terrible.
Jesus rebuked her and said Didn't I tell you that you would see Gods Glory IF you believe?

Do you hear what I am saying about His Glory! If I believe in His son, and in His Glory, I can see it!.. The promise is that IF I believe then I can see His Glory.. I am a total believer in His Glory. I have not only seen His Glory, But I have also felt His Glory.. My mustard seed of faith has shown me many miraculous works from God. I have felt the heat from His Fire. I have heard His voice. I have had all these amazing encounters with the Glory of God.. Dead things in me have been brought back to life!! I testify to the power of God's Glory! I am a witness!!

Then Jesus arrives in Bethany and all the people who heard of about Lazarus being brought back from the dead, flock to Jesus.. And flock to see Lazarus.. But because of God's Glory the religious leaders want to kill Lazarus  and because of Gods Glory people deserted their traditions, deserted their dead faith, and deserted those religious leaders who don't believe in the Glory of God,

and they believed in Jesus instead..

And guess what!! With or without your belief, Gods Glory will be poured out!! "Then a voice spoke from heaven , saying. I have already brought glory to my name, and I will do so again".  It is poured out like a cloud covering this entire earth.. There is no gap in His Glory. His cloud is so thick nothing can penetrate it.

Guess what?? Unbelievers, True Jesus believers, and you religious people, His name and His Glory will be proclaimed all over this earth!! It doesn't matter IF you believe! God is bringing glory to His name constantly.. Even the stones worship God and are a witness to His Glory! "I tell you," he replied, "if they keep quiet, the stones will cry out. 

It doesn't matter how much people fight God, It doesn't matter how much you indoctrinate people with your traditions, it doesn't matter if you believe, it doesn't matter how skeptical you are.. His Glory is here! You can see it! IF you believe!!

Pray for belief! Pray for Jesus to help you overcome your unbelief!!

"What do you mean, 'If I can'?" Jesus asked. "Anything is possible if a person believes." The father instantly cried out, "I do believe, but help me overcome my unbelief!"

Time and Death...

Two weeks ago, I ran my first race in over a year.. I said no pressure to myself.. This is just going to be fun, but once I heard that gun go off, something in me turned into steam engine.. My engine started to steam and I was running like a 7 minute pace trying to keep up with these crazy runners, and my body was like um excuse me,, you have no more steam to pump this body so lets slow down.. So I slowed down, and I ran that 2 miles feeling the pressure of trying to keep up.. 1.5 miles in I could hear someone behind me, which is seriously annoying if you are a runner. There is this thing inside you that doesn't want that person to out run you.. But this lady looked like she was pacing herself and doing great, and I on the other hand was trying to not walk.. And she over took me.. She came in 20 seconds in front of me.. This was a tiny race, so you never know if I would get an award, but this lady that came in front of me received a medal and I said to myself..

"Well next year, she will be one year older".. and then it hit me.. Crap!! SO WILL I!!

I have been thinking about that since then.. I cant escape time.. and you cant either.. Time is the same for me as it is for you.. We both live with time.. It sets up all types of expectations and standards..Time controls us because the more time that goes by the more you age.. The more you age, the closer you get to death.. Which is something you nor I can escape either..

We live this life like we are not living with time... It is something that we are always look at, but yet we act like it doesn't even exist.. and then I started to read Ecclesiastes this week.. and I'm like wow..

 ² The same destiny ultimately awaits everyone, whether righteous or wicked, good or bad, ceremonially clean or unclean, religious or irreligious. Good people receive the same treatment as sinners, and people who make promises to God are treated like people who don’t.³ It seems so wrong that everyone under the sun suffers the same fate. Already twisted by evil, people choose their own mad course, for they have no hope. There is nothing ahead but death anyway. ⁴ There is hope only for the living.

When I read the book of Ecclesiastes, is doesn't make me sad.. It makes me think! How do I want to live the rest of my time here on earth.. Time affects me but it doesn't control me, but for some death and time controls how you live your life, but for me death doesn't control me because I have hope.. There is only hope for the living

And then I get to this passage.. They just speak to me on the weakness of life here on this earth, but more importantly how you should live your life now while at the same time looking in your future..

12 Don’t let the excitement of youth cause you to forget your Creator. Honor him in your youth before you grow old and say, “Life is not pleasant anymore.” ² Remember him before the light of the sun, moon, and stars is dim to your old eyes, and rain clouds continually darken your sky. ³ Remember him before your legs—the guards of your house—start to tremble; and before your shoulders—the strong men—stoop. Remember him before your teeth—your few remaining servants—stop grinding; and before your eyes—the women looking through the windows—see dimly.

⁴ Remember him before the door to life’s opportunities is closed and the sound of work fades. Now you rise at the first chirping of the birds, but then all their sounds will grow faint.
⁵ Remember him before you become fearful of falling and worry about danger in the streets; before your hair turns white like an almond tree in bloom, and you drag along without energy like a dying grasshopper, and the caperberry no longer inspires sexual desire. Remember him before you near the grave, your everlasting home, when the mourners will weep at your funeral.
⁶ Yes, remember your Creator now while you are young, before the silver cord of life snaps and the golden bowl is broken. Don’t wait until the water jar is smashed at the spring and the pulley is broken at the well. ⁷ For then the dust will return to the earth, and the spirit will return to God who gave it.

We may have nothing in common with each other, but these two things are something that are in common with us.. I pray that you have and live with the same hope that I have.. The blessed Hope.. The Eternal Hope.. The Everlasting Hope.. Jesus is my Hope..


¹⁶ “For this is how God loved the world: He gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life.