Do you have faith in your mustard seed?

Sunday I woke up in this weird mood. I was actually debating on skipping church... But I said I know God has something to tell me, so I went.. It was a great service but I was still in this weird mood.. I just felt like crying, and really, for no reason..

Sometimes the Spirit brings laughter, but sometimes He brings weeping.. God brings me into these places with Him, and sometimes its not an instant download of revelation. He gives me piece by piece, sometimes it takes a few minutes, sometimes a few hours, some a few days, and sometimes years..

This started last Saturday.. I was watching a sermon online, and then the next day my pastor spoke almost to the tee the same message. I was wow.. God is speaking to me, but what is He trying to tell me.. Where is He bringing me.. He doesn't bring you into these places just for the fun of fit. Its for Him, and His purposes..  Throughout the week that led up to this past Sunday I was thinking about faith.. Sunday before church I read Romans 8.. The life in the Spirit.. What does that mean? What does that look like?.. I took a shower and was praying and God reminded me of a dream I had at least six months ago.. This dream was for a purpose.. It was to show me something, and to teach me something about God.. I feel so greatfull that God took me into His realm of revealing something to me like this, so I can understand more of Him and more about who He is.. He showed me what it looks like when someone believes in Jesus and has faith.. When a person is re-born with the spirit.. When they become dead to themselves but alive in the Spirit. When a person becomes a new creation!!

In this dream I could hear the breath of God.. I could hear His Spirit giving life to this person.. This person was dead before, but God blew on Him, and He received His Spirit, which led to this person becoming alive in Christ.. Alive only because the Spirit lived in him..

¹¹ The Spirit of God, who raised Jesus from the dead, lives in you. And just as God raised Christ Jesus from the dead, he will give life to your mortal bodies by this same Spirit living within you.

This person who now was alive was also preaching at a church in my dream. This person who was re-born didn't act as if he was dead after He received Gods spirit.. He said that before he was living this life of sin, that he didn't want to let go of and he couldn't breath at all, but then when he let go of his sin, he became alive, and that he could now breath.. Because he was alive.\ 

With Gods amazing love, full of grace, and mercy who gives us life.. Who breaths in us and pours His spirit on us.. Why oh why do we act like we are alive without Him.. We walk around with these vessels that hold the "Holy" spirit and we are useless vessels because we let our mind control us, and not let the spirit control us.. 

He is raising up His army.. An army that doesn't let their mind control them.. But instead gives over everything to Him, so that instead the spirit controls the mind..What does a battalion do when their leader commands..They listen.. They face the battle even if it means death..He is raising up warriors to be His army that lives by His Spirit..

I want that.. I want to be His warrior.. I want nothing more then to be an empty vessel only filled with His Spirit, that lives by His Spirit.. I want my faith to be more then just a mustard seed. I want my faith in Jesus to be a seed that sprouts, and grows, and ends up being the biggest tree that has birds living in it, and making their home in it.. 

Jesus said all you need is a mustard seed of faith.. and with it everything is possible.. Thank you Jesus for starting out small in us.. But I am ready to grow. I want to sprout, and grow branches.. I want to live my life by the spirit. I want to walk like you walked, and see what you see.. I want more and more faith because it is faith that brings Glory To The Father.. That is it. Faith alone is what pleases Him. Faith alone is what glorifies Him.. Faith alone is what saves you.. Faith alone is what gave you His Spirit.. Faith alone is what gave you birth..

So I ask you.. Do you have faith in your mustard seed? Do you really have faith in it? We talk so much about having faith like a mustard seed, but if you were put to the test could you find your mustard seed.?. Sometimes its hard trying to dig it out.. Sometimes its like trying to find a needle in a haystack. 

My mustard seed of faith isnt just faith in what ever I am trying to accomplish.. It is my faith in God.. It is the question that brings God Glory.. Do I have a tiny seed of faith in God, that I cant find sometimes, or is my faith in God easily found.. I dont want to dig to find this seed.. I want it to be on the surface where I can see it. Where I can climb it, Where I can put a hammock in it and rest.. Rest in Trusting in God alone..