It still doesnt end here..

God gave me a huge laugh but also such a breakthrough from my "problem" 3 days ago..  When I was writing that last blog, God reminded me of 1 Kings 19 after I wrote it and clicked the publish button. I said I do feel like I wanted to run away just like Elijah did.

But I didn't realize why God brought that passage to me until today. We went to breakfast with an amazing couple. We know them well but rarely get to spend couple time with them because they are super busy, but we randomly said yesterday, you got time, and we said, we got time..

I cant tell you what a relief it was to me to hear him bring up the same issue as I had, and this doesn't happen by chance.. You know this right? I was listening to him and I finally told our friends how I was feeling, that I wanted to run away and just be with God.  I told them about how God reminded me of the story Elijah.

Elijah was afraid and fled for his life. He went to Beersheba, a town in Judah, and he left his servant there. ⁴ Then he went on alone into the wilderness, traveling all day. He sat down under a solitary broom tree and prayed that he might die. “I have had enough, Lord,” he said. “Take my life, for I am no better than my ancestors who have already died.”

I seriously smile when I read the bible, especially after I hear from God. I love that Elijah sat under a solitary broom tree.. He sat under an "all by itself" broom tree, and he told God he has had enough and to just let him go.  A broom tree is most beautiful between January and April when it is covered with a myriad of white flowers. The symbolism of the broom tree is renewal.  With renewal comes a restoration of vigor and a new freshness.. This is why I laugh.. I seriously cant make this stuff up.. I thank God everyday that He gives me the ears to hear Him.

⁵ Then he lay down and slept under the broom tree. But as he was sleeping, an angel touched him and told him, “Get up and eat!” ⁶ He looked around and there beside his head was some bread baked on hot stones and a jar of water! So he ate and drank and lay down again.
⁷ Then the angel of the Lord came again and touched him and said, “Get up and eat some more, or the journey ahead will be too much for you.”
⁸ So he got up and ate and drank, and the food gave him enough strength to travel forty days and forty nights to Mount Sinai, the mountain of God. ⁹ There he came to a cave, where he spent the night.

It has been three days since I pretty much had my limit, and felt so low. And now when I read this I laugh because God told Elijah to eat and drink three times. During this time, and pretty much any time God is always telling me to eat and drink from Him.

I cant tell you how blessed I am to have the placement of people in my life that comes from God. I felt so blessed this morning to be able to share with people I love. By the time we got done with our breakfast we both were telling each other that we aren't alone, and that God is with us, and provides "others" in our lives that are just like us. 

But it still doesn't end there. On the drive home, it was like OH WOW!! I remember last year I really felt called to go to Lakes church in my town to a simulcast for an Awakening conference. This was my first time visiting this church, and I had no expectations from going. Just felt like I needed to be there. Now I know why God brought me there that day. This simulcast was on Elijah, and how he ran, and was tired, and God kept telling him to get up and eat three times, and I remember God saying to me "save this one for later" I'm not joking. The point of that sermon that day was to remind us about Gods still small voice through exhaustion and to remember to get into Gods word and eat and drink from Him, but now I understand why He had me go there. It was for this very moment in my life. God is bringing it all into place and revealing it to me..

It still doesn't end there. For the past few weeks, and I have been feeling like God has been telling me to really, really focus on Him, and He has brought up facebook with this, and where I spend my time that isn't on Him. I have been preparing to give it up for awhile, but now I understand why even more.. God was preparing me for this too.
  
Today I had a super amazing day. I had a great time with friends I love, took Marissa out on a birthday date, spent some time cleaning up my yard, then I ran 4 miles around the block. While running I said to God this is the only reason why I ever like to run without friends. Its just to be with you. Its you and me out here. When I got home I laid in the tub, and I prayed for God to just show me what He wants me to do, and He told me to reread 1 Kings 19.. So as I am reading, I am thinking wow.. I totally know what He wants me to do.. This is what He has been preparing me to do because this is part of His plan, and I have to listen.

After Elijah got up, he traveled for 40 days and 40 nights to Mount Sinai, the mountain of God.. 


So he got up and ate and drank, and the food gave him enough strength to travel forty days and forty nights to Mount Sinai, the mountain of God. ⁹ There he came to a cave, where he spent the night.
  
Can you say, I'm a tad bit excited.. Elijah was alone traveling for 40 days by himself to the mountain of God.. I am so ready for my 40 day journey to come into the presence of God. I love seeing God face-to-face.. It is amazing, and leaves me shaking and crying every time..  

So with all of this said.. I am going to be giving Greg my facebook for 40 days starting Monday.. He is going to change my password, and keep me out. The hard part about this is that I do need to keep in touch with certain people just for stuff that we are doing in our real lives. So if you need to get a hold of me, get a hold of Greg instead. You can also come here because I will still be blogging all the awesomeness about God. You can also email me laurensmitty1982  @  msn.com or text me. Greg is going to be updating our life group facebook for event info. 

I am asking you guys to please pray for me as well through this next 40 days. I'm not going off the radar completely. I will still be investing my life to God inside and outside the church, but God is asking me to travel with Him for 40 days, so I will adjust my life in order to do that. 

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