Words of Destiny

Yes, I'm still here and kicking..I'm just going to post what Ive been thinking about lately..

Almost a year ago I had a divine appointment with God one Friday afternoon.. I ran into 3 different people who so happened to need encouragement and in the same areas.. God spoke to me that afternoon, and planted His will.. It was two-fold.. The same two-fold message you hear in the gospels but Lauren style.. This message He spoke to me in only a way He knows how to fan my flames.. Only a way His Spirit could set me on a race to run.. To put me into action I call it.. That day I was so pumped I went directly to a friends to just lay it all out for her.. She is one of those friends that I have.. Well one of two friends that I have that no matter what I say or lay it out, they get super pumped with me.. They are like Yes!!! BTW you need those friends.. You need those 2-3 fellow lovers of Jesus to live life with..(yep its biblical too)..  So that day, I dreamt and dreamed of what God told me, and I started my journey.. Over the next few months, God made connections for me to be able to start this race. He provided someone to lay down exactly how to start it, and the information I needed. He gave me sermons to listen to, and spoke to me through scripture.. Then I will say we took a leap and officially started what I thought was going to be the start, but after a few weeks, I knew I was off course, and He once again reminded me of exactly what He spoke to me in May.. So I turned my wheel a little to get back on course, and today was just amazing.. I'm so pumped up and fired up for what I now will call the start of this race..

A few months ago, I was asked to write a paper on what my spiritual gifts are and what does that mean.. I have watched people who are in the ministry.. Like literally watched, and have gathered information on each of them.. I don't know how God does it, but I feel like this is what God has shown me.. When God created you, He spoke words over your life.. Words of your destiny, words of your calling.. There will be a point in your life (hopefully) when you surrender your entire self and will to God.. At that moment, those words spoken over you are activated.. Then the spiritual gifts that spirit gives connect with your destiny and begin to manifest and are visibly amplified.. Even your personality starts to adapt to your calling.. God literally can change the entire person that you are FOR HIS GLORY!! I can tell you that the past two years of my life have been the best years of my life.. His amazing glory, I have been able to see, feel, and touch.. I get to share in His Glory.. I can also tell you that the past two years of my life I have shared in Christs suffering.. I remember last year at around the same time, I was in deep worship and I remember God basically asking have you counted the cost? I remember crying and telling Him I was willing to suffer for His sake.. I really think that is what scripture means about counting the cost.. Don't even think about starting if you haven't counted the cost of what it really takes, what you will have to endure, give up, and suffer for because you really have no idea what it will be, and I still have no idea what it will be in the future.. Over the past year I have seen God's Glory and been able to see glimpses of it but I have also been jacked up emotionally with things I haven't ever had to deal with before.. I have had to find all my hope and strength in Jesus, and rely on the word of God alone. I mean literally on God alone.. You think your church can help, you think friends or family can help but the only thing that stands is God. Sometimes I feel so dumb because each time I have encountered God, I encounter something that jacks me up or vice versa.. I get jacked up and then I encounter God.. And every time God, never pulls me out of those situations instantly, He just continues to say Lauren focus on me.. Endure it, but where is your focus?.. And when I smarten up, the suffering of whatever sort it is just fades away because God and His Glory is something that will never fade.. I will endure things that fade for things that will never fade..
 
And since we are his children, we are his heirs. In fact, together with Christ we are heirs of God's glory. But if we are to share his glory, we must also share his suffering.

No matter where I am at I need to remember these 2 things.. 1. Focus on God all the time.. 2. Dont let anything ever distract you from God's destiny for you.. 

So I just want to encourage you to really think about your destiny... The destiny God has called me too, is nothing of what I thought it was for the almost 20 years of my Christian life.. God always has better for you, but are you willing to count the cost before you start.. Are you willing to surrender your destiny for Gods destiny? It will be amazing if you do, but there will be a cost..